Just in case you've been checking in...

There hasn't been a whole lot for me to complain about lately, believe it or not. Chuck has been really nice since the last blow up. He admitted that he's been moody and grumpy, and he said he didn't realize how badly it hurt me when he gave me the cold shoulder and said mean things. So far, he's been overly mushy to make up for it, which is ok with me! : )

I have been really sleepy again this week; I don't know why. Last night I was up late trying to upload the video to my regular blog, so I know why it was hard to wake up today, but then I went to the Y after dropping the kids off at school, and fell asleep in the car in the parking lot! After I got home, I took a nap on the couch - before I even got a shower! (I did take the dog out and played for a while first, so I was still stinky but not sweaty.) I have been meaning to make Chuck a lemon merengue pie for our anniversary, but I can't get up the energy to start it. 3 times this week I have told him I would make dinner (or at least prepare some of it for him) and haven't done it. What is wrong with me? It's almost like I was when I first gave up caffiene, but that was way back in July, and I have had only a small sip of it since. I have been going heavy on the chocolate, tho - and that does have caffiene too - maybe that's it. I know that I ate really well balanced meals at the ranch this summer, and never had any problems with sleeping or waking up, and felt great all day. I'm sure better nutrition would help. I do try to eat a bowl of oatmeal every morning, since it fills me up and keeps away my munchies for the afternoon. But my lunches either don't exist or are not nutritious. And by dinner, my eating is all messed up. How to rectify this? No idea. I'm too tired to cook real meals! At least at the ranch, someone else planned, cooked, served, and cleaned up the food! I suppose if I had a kitchen staff, I would do much better!lol

So anyway, C was saying that he's getting annoyed that I'm not cooking, and not doing a whole lot around the house. He's heard the tired excuse too often, that doesn't hold water anymore. What to do????

Next week I'm taking the kids to Gretchen's. I hope we have a good time; the visits are sometimes smooth, sometimes rough. It's a stinking long drive, but we get away so little and I'm ready for a road trip. It was much better when she was only 4 hours away; now that it's almost twice as far it seems like the visit should be longer to make it worth the drive. Plus, 2 weeks after that I'm going down to Michelle's, which is an hour longer than Gretchen's! I hope that trip goes well too; but I'll be alone, so the drive will be peacefull and I won't have to stop unless I want to. Michelle is a great hostess, so I know I'll have a good time while I'm there.

Halloween is coming up, and I am already sick of the decorations, the discussions about costumes, etc. etc. It is just my least favorite holiday - I'm not into it at all. If I could, I'd ignore it altogether, but my kids need costumes and stuff for school, and of course they're all sucked into the trick-or-treating thing. Every year we have candy left over for months, until I finally throw it away (same for Christmas and Easter), and it's not like I never have candy here in the house to eat already, but of course they have to go out and be greedy anyway. Daddy, of course, is on their side.

The only other vent I have is about my dad, and his "fiance". I am still not comfortable with the situation, I'm barely speaking to him, and I get the heeby jeebies whenever I do and he brings her up. Gack, I just don't know what to do or think, so I avoid the subject. I wish I could trust that he's truly forthcoming about everything, but he's proven that he doesn't always do what he says, so what can I believe? Is he actually married yet? Chuck is right, he could be and we'd never know because he'd just not tell us to avoid our negative reactions. She sounds all wonderful from his point of view, but I don't like what she's doing to his relationship with his kids - and he doesn't even have a clue! Last email I got from him, she's been going through his closets and stuff, getting rid of a lot of junk for him. Makes me a bit nervous, since he insisted on taking so much with him when he moved, some of which one or the other of us actually wanted. Who knows what she's judging as "junk"? I know some of my reaction is because I'm jealous, since he's certainly never given any of his daughters as much attention as he's given this woman in the scant 3-4 months he's known her. He's been oh so lonely down there all by himself, but can he find any time to come and visit his grandchildren? The guy is stinking retired, for pete's sake! He has as much time as he wants! Isn't that the point of being retired????

OK, I guess I wanted to vent a little more than I realized!lol

That's it for now.